Disdain

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How could your constant disdain

lead to anything other than my victimisation?

 

This disdain, meaning the complete distortion of

my usual behaviour,

leads to many rotten conclusions.

The most rotten conclusion is distrust.

 

You took good care of putting a spell on me.

A spell of insecurity.

I immediately became soft clay in your hands

– like those faces and figures you used to make once.

 

How could your constant disdain

lead to anything other than just a horrible and dramatic end?

 

If you understood for at least a moment

that your constant disdain towards me

is also a result of your own insecurity,

now we would still love each other in some way.

 

It could be otherwise.

It could be otherwise,

if I had left you first.

Only then it could have been otherwise.

 

 

 

 

 

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I started writing when I was a child. When I was a child they used to call me "Lallina". I come from Corfu, a small island in the Ionian Sea, Greece. In the past I used to live for three years in Germany and Berlin. After doing my Master and living in Germany I have decided in September 2018 to move to Barcelona. Spain is a magical country and I decided to move there after living in Germany to change my life and myself. Initially my plan was to study theater in Spain, but later I started building small puppets and entered the world of puppets for a while. Now I am are more interested in painting. As for writing, it was always my best companion. Empecé a escribir cuando era niño, en la escuela. Cuando era niña solían llamarme "Lallina". Vengo de Corfú, una pequeña isla en el mar Jónico, Grecia. En el pasado vivía durante tres años en Alemania y Berlín. Después de hacer mi maestría y vivir en Alemania, decidí mudarme a Barcelona en septiembre de 2018. España es un país mágico y decidí mudarme allí después de vivir en Alemania para cambiar mi vida y mi mundo interior. Inicialmente, mi plan era estudiar teatro en España, pero luego comencé a construir pequeños títeres y entré al mundo de los títeres por un tiempo. Ahora estoy más interesado en la pintura. La escritura, siempre fue mi mejor compañero. Bueno, probablemente descubrirán también algunos bocetos. En 2020 comencé también a grabar algunos de los textos, que están disponibles en soundcloud. El propósito era poner los textos a disposición de las personas que no pueden ver.